Life is hard. plain and simple. Everyone knows it and sometimes its hard not to complain about it. You should be happy that you lived to see another day, but its not always that simple. I dont think anyone will ever know how your life can go from being perfect, to well being not so perfect in just a matter of a day. I mean I am partly the blame for how some things are in my life because i wouldn't let myself realize what was right in front me and i took advantage of the one thing that was good in my life. And i can't say that i regret it but i can say if i could i would go back and change it. It's odd to think how different my life was a year ago because then i had everything, i even had my future all planned out. but now i don't know what i want. I am grateful for what i have, such as a great family that will always be there no matter what, and friends that take my mind off the bad things in life. I'm a optimist, i always see the good things in situations. but lately I've been having trouble doing that. but really how couldn't i? it's hard being on your own in a city where you have no family, and very few close people to turn to and being a broke college student at the same time struggling to pay bills and get good grades in school. I know there will be a better tomorrow and i will pull through all this, but it sucks so bad having to wait around for that day to come. It could be tomorrow, or 6 months from now.
Its funny because just yesterday i was pondering this while i laid in the tanning bed and a song came on the radio called "sounds like life to me" and everything in it was so true. for example one of the lines goes..
"Sounds like life to me it ain’t no fantasy
It’s just a common case of everyday reality
Man I know it’s tough but you gotta suck it up
To hear you talk you’re caught up in some tragedy
It sounds like life to me"
This really is just everyday reality and i guess ive never realized that before until it just up and smacked me in the face recently. I just have to keep telling myself "eventually it will ALL work out..eventually."
xoxo.
Megan
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