what's next?

What do you do when you lose your best friend?  What do you do when the one who made you smile is the one causing your pain?  what do you do when the one person you turned to for everything isn't there anymore? 

Sometimes I wish relationships didn't exist until we were mature enough to handle one..say in our 20's? i dont know but for sure not in our teens.  All heartbreaks would end and no one would be hurt by the one they love.  i know it'll never happen, but a girl can wish though right?  Its close to valentines day and for the past couple years I had no problem with the holiday and I had someone to share it with.  But now the pain of not having a valentine is back.  It's really not that bad, it is after all just one day for people to be lovey dovey with each other and to buy each other chocolates in a heart shaped box. i don't even like chocolate. But what about the people who don't have a valentine supposed to do?  Sit around and feel sorry for ourselves?  no way.  Valentines day is one of the most overrated holidays and i feel it serves no purpose for anyone.  If you love someone show them all 365 days of the year, not just one lousy day.

Questions are buzzing around me about my relationship, or lack there of and honestly i dont feel like answering anyones questions.  Its been a crummy week, and it sucks that that same crummy week involves my birthday, valentines day, and when i lost my best friend.  But i'm not blogging for a pity party by no means, just wanted to get things out of my system.  All I'm saying is if you love someone, don't throw it away.

So those of you out there with no valentine this year, stay strong and beautiful because one day you'll have that special someone that you'll celebrate each others love every day of the year.

xoxo.
Megan

venting session.

Ill start off with saying this blog really has  no point but for me to COMPLAIN!  Recently I've been having trouble focusing on my bio homework and tests.  Can someone please tell me why I'm forced to take bio when it has NOTHING to do with my future career?  I suck at any type of science, helllooo that is why my major has nothing to do with science.  I'm pretty sure when I'm finally a teacher, my kindergartners will have to know anything about bio!  But its not just bio, i have a history and a algebra class...pretty sure 5 year olds wont even care about that kind of stuff.  Whatever I am just so so so ready to start my classes that actually have to do with an elementary education.  I feel like I'm wasting MY money that I pay for college on classes that i'll forget about as soon as this semester is over with.  This week I just seem to not care about school in general, I have had NO motivation for any homework this week but I still managed to get it all done..barely.

Another thing is i am sick and tired of all this snow! Even though its February and still winter, I'm pretty sure we're still supposed to the see then sun more than once a week! and it ruined my birthday plans.  I didn't do one thing special on my birthday all because of stupid snow.  I'm just in a bah humbug kinda mood this week.  Besides 19 feels no different than 18.  And I won't feel different until I'm 21 probably.Oh well..there's always next year.

Life sucks sometimes but I read a quote yesterday that made me feel so much better and would make other feel better as well.
"Dear whoever is reading this,
you're beautiful so smile because life is too short to be unhappy"

I'll have to keep that in mind the next time I'm in this kinda mood..and so should you.

xoxo
Megan

Learning a lesson in an unexpected place.

I've recently jumped on the bandwagon and began watching glee.  I swore up and down that I thought it was stupid before I ever even watched it.  But when I finally did I fell in love with the show and the characters and now I can't get enough of it.  The strange thing about it is that it actually taught me something.  Stand up for what you believe in and don't change yourself just because someone else doesn't like or it's not "cool."  God made us who we are because that's how we are meant to be, don't change for someone else's sake.  Love yourself and be proud of who you are.  In the show they all have different struggles, one girl isn't popular, another guy is gay, and another girl is goth.  And because of who are they are, the are ridiculed and tore down and it should never be like that, but they go against the odds and stand up for themselves.  What I'm trying to say is that no matter what anyone says, if your doing what you love then keep doing it.  Don't let others bring you down because if there making fun of how you are chances are they're just insecure about themselves. 

xoxo.
Megan

Appreciate.

I recently have learned to appreciate all that I have been blessed with but I wasn't always really appreciative.  A lot of us, well most of us including me, complain about our lives, but it's hard not to when things don't go our way.  We're all guilty of doing it.  I don't know a girl who didn't think her life would end when "the one" broke her heart.  But truth is, if he broke your heart he was never "the one" to begin with.  Just because something terrible happens doesn't mean you need to shut everyone else who surrounds you out of your life.  Appreciate what you have been blessed with.  When a boy breaks your heart or vice versa, or whatever challenges God throws your way always know there is someone there to turn to.  Whether it be your friends or your family.  Never claim to hate your life just because something bad happens because it could be a lot worse.

xoxo.
Megan
 

Lets see where this leads me.

I've been wanting to start keeping a journal for awhile but then when i saw all the blogs being posted on facebook i figured that's just as good.  Since i've moved away to college I don't have many close "girlfriends" here and when I want to just let all my problems and opinions out I find myself having no one to turn to.  So, for now, hopefully this blog will act as that "girlfriend."  Maybe this blog will get some followers, but if not I'm not so sure that i'll care.

xoxo.
Megan